I'm so ugly my mom told me that i was ugly really i've had many people tell me i was but then some people tell me that i'm pretty beauty is important in the world. If i was 300 pound women do you think men would open the door for me? Do you think people would like me? What if i was a super model, Would you want to be my friend? It's hard to look in the mirror sometimes. But i have to in order to put make-up on. To make sure my hair doesn't look bad. I can not get another boyfriend. I'm just not pretty enough. And i don't have this wonderful personality. I feel i only have john and won't have anyone less. it makes me sad. i called john again but no one picked up the phone. i don't think he has caller id i can't wait till he moves out of state. I just want to forget about him. I'm so weak