happy birthday to chris. yesterday was terrible and i was on the verge of crying all day. which is bad and sloppy, i feel. i didn't get to see mike or anything good. luckily, stuart came over just after 10 and we had a grand ol' time. he made me feel soooo much better. and he made everyone in his house give me a hug:) we had macaroni and cheese and fried chicken!! oh, and carrots. it was so good. we drove around for a while and i spilled out all the bad stuff and all my stressing worries and whatnot. *sigh of relief* i've been visiting all sorts of online shopping sites today-wishful thinking. but i did find some really cute stuff....so much stuff to pay for before i splurge on clothes, though. eh, oh well. i've not been doing much today- i watched mad about you and remember how much i actually loved that show. i think it's wonderful. i've also been applying to credit cards online all day. which is weird cause i always thought that they'd give one to anyone- guess not. everytime i apply through the mail, i get rejected. why is that? last night i had dreams of grandeur and loviness. i had dreams of walking up to irish castles and running through scottish meadows, taking the ferry to the mainland and shopping over cobblestone streets. the weather was always misty and fresh, slightly chilly. i visited tons of historic places and royal monuments. i stared at the buckingham guards and set my watch to BigBen. when i awoke, i felt like i'd lost something. some day, i say. some day. i applied online for this bilingual position at the sears portrait studio in the orlando mall, where kevin works. that'd be awesome, if i got it. i think i'll call them later. got to get those applications for the apartment filled out. i think my dad owes me $100. i think, anyway. michael jackson is the best entertainer of all time. yay for jacko. he's not whacko. well, he is. but still.