On July 20, 2008...Pops passed away. That day was the almost the most emotionally disturbing day of my life. I never had to deal with death before (well, only when my great aunt died of diabetes in 2006, and my great-grand mother died of cancer in 2007 at like 80-something yrs old). Pops was my grandfather and he passed at age 62. I think thats pretty young--if you ask me. You know what's scary? He told my parents and my cousin's parents that it was a must that they'd bring us to visit him. So...the boys went to spend time with them, around the end of June. On July 1st, the girls(including me) went to visit him. On July 4, we went to my grandmothers family reunion. We ate and had a conversation with him about...diversifying and stuff. On the way home, Pops broke out into a cold sweat. It was hot outside, but with the AC in the car blasting--that should'nt have happened. Jedda(that's what I call my grandmother)...noticed it. She was asking him if he was okay, and he told her he was alright.(yeah right)She knew he wasn't okay..so she kept asking him. He said he had chest pains. We had to stop on the side of the road, and called the ambulance. I just had this feeling that he was having a heart attack....I just knew it. About a week later...A week later!!! He was released from the hospital. You know, we spent the night at the hospital everyday...until he started to show signs of improvement. The doctors say he was lucky to even have made it to the hospital. Four of his arteries were clogged. FOUR. About five days after being released, he died from another heart attack. The stints or whatever they used to hold the ateries open, must have failed. I just could'nt take the funeral...I cried when we got to his house, In the Limo, at the church, the gravesite, and when we returned to the church. Its crazy how cold they keep the Limosines...it just makes everything worse. I'll miss Pops hugs, deep voice, and humor. I will miss it when Pops calls me 'slim' and 'Next Top Model.'I'll miss those days. It seems like everyone important to us is dying. Everyday important people in your life are leaving you. You just have to realize that today could be the day you leave, and there is nothing you can do to change that. When they say, "Live like there is no tomorrow". That saying is REAL.