I like this guy...He doesn't know it yet. I gave him my number over the summer..he has a girlfriend. Why I gave him my number?? I don't know--we aren't going to talk or hang out. He's sweet, beautiful, and a nice person to hang around. I don't know if he likes me the way I like him. It took me a long time to realize that I actually had feelings for him.
I hate my life. What more can I say? I'm so sick of school already..Everything is confusing. I wanted everything to be perfect this year, if not better than last year. It has been five days, and I am already hating school. I love to learn, don't get me wrong..but I hate failure. Im going to try to get some extra help...Someone PLEASE HELP ME. I'm going down that depression road again. In fact, I don't think I ever got rid of it all. I miss being happy, having friends, and loving life. Sometimes I wonder if I ever did. I can only remember being happy before age 9. Before my parents split.

I don't really care about the fact that they aren't together--or do I?
I don't know. I miss my mother even though I speak to her on the phone everyday. I thank god that I still have my parents. I love them...they have their flaws. I will never hate my parents, after all they are the two people that made me. No matter what, I will always love them. I need to be loved. I want someone who will always be there for me...someone who cares for me, that will never leave me. Who loves me for who I am and not for what I look like. Life is so hard sometimes..I wish it was like Burger King. I want to have it my way:) I'll try to get through it all. I'll Try.