oj..in the summer my parents make all these dumb rules and such like i hafta wake up at 8:30 and go to sleep at 10 and another extremely annoying one is i can only use the comp for 1 hour a day...and thats the most annoying one..my mothers convinced that computer hurts your eyes and it rots ur brain...unfortunately i need more than an hour and it goes by painfully fast..ya i havta go to the gym to tapdance and then i have my gymnastic class (my parents own and run a gymnastics gym) and today is not going to be a very good day..i have a feeling..but ya..i also have to take a math tutor ontuesday and thursday frm 10-11 and i am not happy about it...but it really is helping..i guess.. i hate people and their labels...people have a tendency to label themselves as well as other people and i try to avoid that at all costs..cause my label..naturaly is "freak" i dont have to act like MY normal self around people and they still look at me like i'm a circus side show...there is nothing phys. rong with me.. people just dont understand me..now every one is misunderstood but there are levels of it..their are very few people that can understand and talk to me on my level.. but those people are quickly placed into the label "best freinds" cause often times they dont come often enough...i kno tons of people but they all mock me in different ways...it's all the tiny quircky things that are really insults and slaps in the face..and in a way now its all subconcious.. they are permanently stuck in the ddamn habit....but at steller most of the time there was never a prob..there were people that understood me true..but i was still strange to them..and aparently people are not afraid to admit stuff like the fact that "carol is the weirdest person at steller" and that is really saying something cause i felt like i belong there meaning there were people that were ramotly like me...god i hate people..there are very few people that treat me like another human being...even my family has branded me with the label "Freak" although they would never admit it... to my face anyway..i'm gnna check back in later...might have a sleep over with si tnight...:)...and we can figeur out this whole diary thing...ya xoxoxoxoxoxo Carol