hello loves i'm thinking of recontinuing my self mutilation that way no one on the face of the earth except my fmily could fall in love with me so i dont break any one elses hearts except for mine... thats what happens to heart breakers anyway they wind up alone and lonely why shouldnt i just finish my cutting while i have the chance that way i wouldnt be able to hurt anyone else... its sad that i wish not to be loved anymore..when what most people yearn for with all their hearts is to be loved....what inside is making me want the opposite? why do i thirst for lonelyness with such a passion....my thoughts are becoming emo i think that i shall stop writing so that i dont mutilate my thoughts as well as my body lmao my god i'm lame...how anyone could love me it hurts just thinking about all the hearts ai'v broken about all the peoplei'v hurt... and all from the place that i love the most i'm srry that i'm a sensless bitch-gothic-whore who has nothing better to do with her time than croon about my drowned thoughts and feelings...i think i'll go now