i'v decided not to care what people think of me i waist too much energy woriing about it and if people dont like who i am then they will just hafta get over it.and tweek i'm sure u hate me but i decided not to give a s*** i can change who i am but i'm not going to anymore. service is alright i miss my posse. i wake up everymorning and i feel sick to my stomach because i miss steller so bad. at service i'm quiet and reserved with a slight punkish look. i'v noticed that heavie eye makup and the loner look make people avoid me. at this point its a good thing. i dont want to socialize and i want people to want to get to know me instead of me cutting myself open to them. makes me feel more wanted in a way i guess. i'll be at the dances which are going to be like the highlights of my year. i feel like such a damn narcissist but when u look at narsiccism.... they focuse on themeselves cause they feel like no-one else cares... maybe thats how i'v been feeling. i'm srry for everything i might have done to affend people. i'm sorry for being who i am.. i dont want people at service to kno who i am....i'm still not sure why. but i'v been kinda depressed lately not like its different or anything but ya. i gtg latah peeps P.S. if i fuckin bother u so much why didnt u get rid of me? or atleast take me off ur freind list ya stupid fuck?