i am too social, really if i had like no-social life i wouldnt be feeling like this. i feel like total crap i'm so tired of missing people, i'm totally calling nic tomorow and sneaking out. its amazing what the influence of a badboy can do.lmao. wow i'm phsyco. i'v gotta say sie i miss you the mostest. truly i do. we need to hang out soon. tweek.... u kno what i'm thinking. if u kill urself i'll kill you again cause ull get over it. really u will.god i miss u all.i wish someone would leave coments or somethin u kno? we all feel unloved when we dont get comments....but then again u all havent really heard from me for a few months right? why would you all want to remind yourselves that i'm gone in the first place?? yeah thats what i thought...omfg im talking to myself...ooh i have a story for you all...a new freind of mine...when he was 7 his mom went clinically insane...she litterally heard voices and shit...anyway she covered herself with gasoline and lit herself on fire...and then ran down the highway....she never even screamed.... my freind....he sometimes just get drunk and cries..... how depressing is that...i dunno....makes me feel sick actually... people think i'm a heavy stoner and druggie cause i hang with nic....i wonder if i should be worried....yeah i should be worried....hey tweek...when someone is talking to you and asking questions maybe you should like answere the questions so maybe they can remotely understand you...even tho i totally kno whats wrong with you....i kinda need proof that i'm right...... yeah...... too bad u cant be like able to talk to people....omg i sound like a total bitch....i think i get it now...the reason that i'm nice to people isnt cause i care about them its so people would like me.....its totally selfish...omg why didnt i realize this befor...noe that i truly understand myself maybe i can just let out all my bitchyness all at once like i'm doing right now ...................shit............i'm gonna go befor i break something....love you sie byebye ttfn hugs and kisses buy me therapy