ok i kno that people do drugs but i never really new a person who did them...i dontkno why it hurts to kno that hes doing them and i kno that hes prbably not going to read this entry anyway i dont kno why i'm pissed mayb he likes it mayb it helps him in some twisted way...most people try drugs and all that shit but i didnt kno that knowing hes doing it could hurt this much...i feel like crying...i dont think most people knos what it does to them...mayb it wasnt the fact that he sayd he was high may be it was the "tmrw is goin to b so much fun i'm going to the mall with drina"....mayb thats whats killing me...i dont kno but i'm really hurting...the person who i'm promised to....drugs and going to the mall with other girls....fuck him...mayb i 'm over reacting but i dont care i'm just aching and hurting....he doesnt kno how much i fuckin miss him...god his image is what keeps me from sliting my own wrist...fuck...this hurts so much...i feel really betrayed when i kno i shouldent....he says he loves me....he wants to stay with me....he promisede his undying love damnit and i thought that we could keep along distance relationtip...ya wanna hear something sick i actually have a little folder with all his pictures in it and everything that he's ever typed on his diary about me and all that shit....god i hate myself...i'm gnna stop doing this shit diary cause its not like people care let alone leave coments so fuck u world and i'm gnna go and find a fucking tissue or something....but i do love him...i do idoidoidoido i just wanna die evry time i cant see him and all that shit...god damnit... i feel so empty fuck ,love...poison..bloody knifes their all the same...fucking thing... k im officially leaving now....sitdiarys and the internet....so...ya tweek if u do wined up reading this which for some reason i seriously doubt...i still love u but i just....i dont kno....god damnit...just bye..i'll see u when i see u