freak of love

by carolyn
hello loves i'v been kinda lonely...i walked about 8 miles to nics house the other day desperate??? yeah i think so....anyway were hanging in the library and hes holding my hands cuz they were cold...he askes why my hands are cold when were in a warm spot...i say that i dunno and that i'm a freak...he gives me a hug and a kiss and says " yeah you are....but yoiur my freak" i dont kno why but him saying that...made me so hapy it mean both acceptace and love all at once... and i loved it he got me a superman hat, red slipers and hes going to get me longerei for christmas....hehe....yeah...no ones ever bought me underwear like that...he asked what kind and i said anything that turns him on...so thatll be interesting lmao...yeah...i'v changed....hes been influencing me...its strang he doesnt mean to but i'v almost snuck out...i'v talked about getting drunk and i'm thinking about losing my virginity to him...hes a virgin too actually lmao...yeah ooh and i'm also developing a taste for rap music...yeah i kno...lmao...k luves i gtg love yall byebye
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You know, as for the virginity thing, go for it, IF you're COMPLETELY sure this is the person you want to lose it to. But remember, this is something you don't want to regret in the future because you can never take it back.

Hold on, running out of space....
[sie]
As far as the alcohol's concerned.... Fuck, Carol! I thought you'd be the last person that would even think about that! I mean, what possible reason would you have to even start drinking? One, alcohol is disgusting, and two, it fucks up your brain so badly, who would put themselves through that? I mean, is Nic pressuring you to do it? Because if he is, I know you care aobut him, but he isn't fucking worth it.

Running out of room again...
[sie]
I really glad that you're happy, but please, PLEASE don't do anything stupid. Remember, we care about you! And we don't want you to hurt yourself. Just don't do anything you'll regret in ten years, okay? Please!

I love you so much, just keep that in mind.
[sie]
And remember, the only reason I'm yelling at you about this is because I love you and I'm worried about you.
[sie]
As a respected Senior, and experienced, I offer this advice. Sex is the one thing you'd regret, losing your virginity this young, with someone who is probably just using you. He's trying to pressure you into things like drinking ans sex. When you're drunk it's easier for him to secude you. Just be carefull Carolyn, for me. You may think it's okay to have sex because you love him, but just wait atleast another 2 months. -- continued --
-- If he really loves you he will wait 2 months no problem. 2 Months is nothing in relationship terms. If he's really being serious he would wait no questions asked. As far as drinking and sneaking out goes, that's regular teenaged acts. You'll drink for sure anyway when you're older, and sneaking out is usually expected w/ young teens. I've done it all, the only thing I regret is losing my virginity to someone who I really didn't love. Think. <3
Does Browny use Sitdiary? I would like to add him, also do you have his Email? He gave it to me at Steller, but I lost it, he also gave me his number, but I lost that too. I fear he will not be comming back to Steller after Christmas break, and I really want to hang out with him. So if you know anything please let me know!
Does Browny use Sitdiary? I would like to add him, also do you have his Email? He gave it to me at Steller, but I lost it, he also gave me his number, but I lost that too. I fear he will not be comming back to Steller after Christmas break, and I really want to hang out with him. So if you know anything please let me know!
Actually, I've put more thought on the subject, Drinking is not okay. They have age restrictions for a reason, and it's so young people like yourself don't get knocked up and left with a baby while they are still in high school. I can't stop you from drinking, you'll probably be around it if you keep hanging out with this nic fellow, so just be careful, watch your back and dont drink too much when you do. Happy New Years!