Confussed, Angery, Hurt, Alone, Dead

Listening to: Prince- Purple Rain
Feeling: abandoned
Hey Guys, So first, LeAnne broke up with me, which im ok with. i still like LeAnne, but our relationship was gping no where and we'll be better as friends. next, Today i was suppost to go to the movies w/ Car Kyle and rae. we saw it was playing on Fri and decide to go see PotO. yesterday i was a raes for Steve BB-day party (and feeling like a 7th wheel) and rae was talking to scott, kyle and car about going and left me out. then no one calls me today and i feel left out and hated. kyle and car didnt go but rae and scott did. if it had been me and my date w/ rae in my sich, i would have included her and not tried to knock her out of the picture. so now im home andalone and hurt. so i have 2 words for her: fuck u. at least i stuck w/ u. i saved what i could of our relationship and u didnt even care. u no i would have included u no matter what. ive been there with u for the last month, even with u doing stuff with scott right in my face. i never would have done that 2 u. wise up. other have fellings. i respected u enough to not do things like that in front of u. im not the only one its getting 2. kyle feels the same way about u 2 as u feel about him and car. i feel like ur just a user. u dumped kyle, and hes treated like shit, we break up and even though we were friends for ever, u shit on me to. i feel like i can talk to u anymore, u dont care about ne one but ur self. i have to go to others to talk, and u have no clue. i really wished ued wisen up. u may be tired of "doing things for other people," but did u ever do things for others to begin with or have u just made up a stupid excuse to get ur way? think about it and call me in the morning. Ben P.S. to every one else, i love u and have a great spring break.
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Hey Ben. I know I just wrote you an entry on my diary but I'm leaving a comment on here to let you know how sorry I am for all the shit you get put through. You know you can always call me and I'll try my best to help you. You mean a lot to me and I hate that you get stuck in crappy situations. Thank you for helping me through mine though.
-Car
Ben, I apologize if we made you feel "odd numbered wheel". It really sucks about the LeAnne thing, but there are others out there. Trust me on this one; I'll help you through this.
You helped me, I owe it to you as a friend. And as for not calling you today...stupid mom was filing taxes online for 7 HOURS. Grr.

Wub ya Benki Ronso. :D
Hey Ben. I'm really sorry about all the stuff you are going through. Life is tough and it really sucks. If you ever wanna talk I am hear to listen, so just let me know. i'm sorry to hear about you and LeAnne breaking up and the way Rachel is treating you. Just remember that I love you and so do many other people.

~Jaz
I love you Ben. I hope you feel better soon. I’m here if you need to talk, although you’ve gotten about 5 of those offers already. Know I’m here okay? Have a good rest of the night.
Kristy
ben,
i am really sorry for leanne. and i didnt, know i was treating you so poorly. look if i could just defend myself for one moment, i have to be a different person around different people, and i am happy to just be me, but i feel like people really need me to be who they want to be. i'm sorry that just this once i didn't think of you first. you might not realize this but i have changed so much for you. and not out of spite, but because i cared
and ben, i still care. but i'm not supposed to! i have scott to worry about now, and well maybe if i can't please you anymore, even if i ever did, maybe we just shouldn't talk anymore. i'm tired ben, i can't fight for things like i used to. i'm really sorry, but this is probably it. i'll miss you ben!