Pain

Listening to: Hurt by Johnny Cash
Feeling: sparkly
So i just found out that i am not who i want to be to some one i really care about, actually the only person i really care about. i never wanted to come off to this person as i geuss i did. i never knew what was going on with us and just found out. over the last few days i've looked over my "friends" and realize i'm no longer who i tried to be. i was so much more happy as a goth and now im just a fake. i just want the person who i've hurt to know that i am sorry to have treated her like i did. i have found who i am and wish to be alone now. its sad to say this again, but fuck u all. i'm tired and am pulling away from what has been the best thing in my pathetic life, the people who i have attached mysef to at the expense of myself. i feel this song: Hurt i hurt myself today to see if i still feel i focus on the pain the only thing that's real the needle tears a hole the old familiar sting try to kill it all away but i remember everything what have i become? my sweetest friend everyone i know goes away in the end you could have it all my empire of dirt i will let you down i will make you hurt i wear my crown of shit on my liar's chair full of broken thoughts i cannot repair beneath the stain of time the feeling disappears you are someone else i am still right here what have i become? my sweetest friend everyone i know goes away in the end you could have it all my empire of dirt i will let you down i will make you hurt if i could start again a million miles away i would keep myself i would find a way Goodbye- Ben
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i know this sounds concided, but i forgive you! lol! well i'm around! love you!
hm... well, i'm glad you found your true self. as for the rest...well just remember this, i really dont give a damn what kind of person you are, you're still my freind. sure, sometimes you piss me off, but i'm sure i do as well. if you ever need somebody to talk, or complain :),to dont be a stranger...or else :)
hey ben. i hope you know that however you want to be is fine with me as long as you are happy with who you are. i'm here for you if you ever need to talk, call me if you want. i hope you are having a good summer. take care and always remember that you have friends that are always here for you.
i sorry you feel this way Ben i hope we did not drive you into this, but if you found yourself that is all that really matters, i respect your decision and it is your decision so see ya around -nathan-
Nothing else to say but agreeing with Nathan.
I'm really glad that you've figured out what you want Ben. But just because you're changing, that doesn't mean that your friends will turn their backs on you, especially if you're changing to whatever's best for you.