in all of this, im making a contract to myself.

if i tell a guy im going to do something to him, i will do it.

if i tell myself i want to do something, i cannot pussy out.

like if i say to myself, "i want to go up to that guy and say hi." i have to do it.

if i say: "im going to fuck him today." i will do it.

and so on and so forth.

im done lying to myself about the stupidest things,

and leading guys on.

i want a boyfriend and leading guys on isnt the way to do it.

inconclusion, this is my contract.

if i make a promise or say i will do something,

I HAVE TO DO IT.

usually i want to anyways, so i dont think ill have a problem there.

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