I'm not sure why I feel this way....I'm always happy and in a great mood. I have a great family and fantastic friends, but it seems that I am missing something thats unexplainable. I know people always wish they had more then what they got. But I really, truley wish that I had just a few more things that maybe would make my life feel more complete. Obviously the number one thing would be money....everyone wants more money. Second of all I need a real man. I cant stand some guys anymore....thirdly I need something to boost my confidance. I'm not saying that I'm ugly or anything. I find myself quite attractive, but there is always room for improvement. I also always find myself attracting the wrong kind of men....I dont get it. I see sooo many great looking guys out there with such unattractive women. I know I sound shallow but it's just the way I feel now.... I think I need to do something with my life, but I just don't know where to begin? Maybe the curse that has fallen upon me is irriversable, and I'm stuck in this dark world that comes over me ever so often. Hmmm....Maybe moving to Ottawa, or Montreal will do me good? Maybe that will be my new begging, and my old ending? Whatever it's going to be I hope its better then what I have now..... ....Thats all I got....