I have got to be the stupidest (if thats a word) person in the whole world!!! Isn't your job supposed to be your number one priority?? YA! thats what I thought! Well its seems to me that my brian dont think so! Okay, so this is what happend....Sarah Laura, and I all went out like always but we arrived quite late but it was all good cuz the club was open till 3am. So anyways.....it was a good time I seen people that I haven't seen a years!! I mean like from high skool! So that was kinda like a reunion. And the best part was that they complimented on my apperance! thats always a plus especially if your a girl. Anyways.....so after the club I was supposed to meet up with Dave, Luke, and this other guy....so we all left....yes I drove under the influance.... :-( But its okay I just hit a pole this time! lol But ya so we dropped off Laura, and the Sarah and I were off on another ADVENTURE!!! we got to Lukes house, and I drank some more then...and Sarah was busy with one of the guys...but I will leave it at that....and Luke was trying to hit me up when we were upstairs taking shots....and I was more kinda with Dave! SO that was complicated....and then I ditched Luke and had some fun with Dave....Before I knew it I had to get the hell home!! SO...I end up driving Dave home and its all good, but as soon as I get home all hell breaks loose!! My mother started freaking out on me! calling me a irresponsable crack head, and that I drink way too much....and she thinks that I'm becoming a alki....and that I pick up too many guys, and god knows what the hell I do when I'm out. I'm a 20 year old that has nothing going for her, and that I should be more like this person and that person....So I couldn't take it anymore and broke down! on the car ride to work which I was a hour and a half late....and thats the worst part....I think I might be getting fired. I screwed up MAJORLY.....I cant go out during the week anymore...if thats going to cost me a job that I really love then I will give it all up. I cant lose this job....I really dont know what I am going to do!!!! So my boss didn't have the time to talk to me today so I have to be patient and wait till tomorrow, I am sooo scared that it feels like I am going to vomit! Well that pretty much sums it all up...I am a fucked up crack head retard that needs to her shit strait......