I'm not too sure on how to go about my situation...well as wired as this may sound...I was completely sober all weekend....with the exclusion of getting high of course. Anyway....Sarah and I went to the bar on Saturday as always....but SOBER! and man is it ever different!! So it was Tom's last day as the bouncer there and all the other bouncer's decided to play a joke on him....they seram wraped him to a pole, and then pied him in the face as well as spilled beer all over him, and put whipped cream all over him too. It gets better....I had and still do have a "thing" for this guy there by the name of Jason. He is also a bouncer there. He ended up showing up that night at the bar which was a TOTAL surprise!! OH MY GOD did he ever look GOOOD!!! he was actually in his normal clothes for once! lol Cuz everytime that I see him, he's always in his security uniform. So ya I seen him there but I completely ignored him! why I don't know! Then he seen me and came up to me...and of course the first thing he said was "why are you such a snob?" thats what he always says. And then it was followed by how great I looked.....at this point I was trying not to blush! lol then we talked and he was touching my BUM! Well we've done more then that before....but still this guy is super gorgeous in my eyes! So he asks me..." wanna walk me to my car?" and me being a dumb ass retard! said no I don't think thats a good Idea!!! What the hell happend to me!!! If I was intoxicated then I would have been out that door in no time!! and he was soooo surprised! He was like..."what? you dont wanna come with me?" I was like no man....I dont think its a good idea!!! and my friend Sarah was like WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!!?!!?! she is like you always wanted this and now you are passing it up!??!!? I was like Yes I am....i'm turning over a new "leaf" I think I was on crack! cuz I TOTALLY regret it!! I couldn't believe tha words that were coming out of my mouth!! and I think that he was in shock as well... He said....remember that time in the security van....which was the nigtht that I was trying to forget!! Anyway...I am proud of myself....but I regret it totally...so I think that I am going to have to make it up to him this Wednesday! I just didn't think that is was right that he was drunk, and I was sober....even though that last time I was completely drunk, and he was completely sober!!! lol. I just cant believe that I blew it!! And I think that I really hurt my chances with him now....but I dont want the label of a slut. So I think that I did the right thing. And now Mike and "curnal" keep calling me as well!!! I have GUY issues!! what am I to do!! I still want Jason sooooo bad!! Oh well we will see what happens. Leave a comment and let me know what you think! Thanx ya'll!! with my love XoXoX