Listening to: Dick all!
Feeling: bothered
So here is the downlow....The guy that I have been with for a while now...had a girlfiend, which didn't bother me at all at first...but then as soon as things progressed with us I started to feel guilty and didn't think that it was fair.
Usually I could give 2 shits...but I think its because I was slowly getting emotionally involved, and I couldn't let that happen. So lastnight at work we were talking on the phone, and I told him that I could no longer see him anymore...he was really shocked, and seemed quite upset....It's not like this was super easy for me either...but not that difficult. He said that he needed to talk to me after work and that we had to talk about this, so I agreed to meet with him.
When he came to pick me up it was weird...I knew what I had to do but I didn't want to! Though I did it anyway....it's what my instinct, and concience told me to do. He looked like he was about to cry when I told him that I cant talk to him all the time anymore, and I don't think that I could handle hanging out with him again right away...he said that he understood, but didn't want this to happen....I said to him YOU HAVE A GF!!! AND I NEED A MAN I CAN CALL MY OWN!!! he said I know, I know...well I told him that he can't have the cake and eat it for two. So anyways....when we got to my house...we talked a little more and I agreed that we would ocasionally hang out as friends here and there...but nothing more or nothing less. So then he asked me to give him one more hug, and I did and then that was that.
After about a hour and a half he called me and told me that he already missed me and that if I ever needed anything to give him a call. My response to that was..."if you ever become single let me know, but it might be too late by then..." and I left it at that. And I haven't heard from him yet... :-(
I know that I did the right thing, but why do I feel sooo odd? It's a feeling that I can't explaine.... I'm in need of some advise...let me hear what you have to say...
Thanx...
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