I have never felt so alone my entire life. Emotionally, physically, mentally. I feel sick. Everyone's leaving, or already gone... And I am left with nothing and no one. This next week and a half will be hell. I'm going to bury myself in my art, bury myself in my bed, and basically lay around feeling sorry for myself. I have this feeling movies will be my best friend. I have two choices: Feel alone, or be a slut. Give my body up to people to make myself feel needed? At this point I absolutely refuse to do so. Then I would hate myself even more. I don't understand what people see in me in the first place. It would be so much easier if no one ever fell for me, or wanted to pursue something sexually. Soomuch. I can't dare face love right now, I can't dare face a crush. I can't even face the awkward conversations I know are sure to come. Luckily, lying in my bed by myself for a week and a half will make that easy for me. I'm just not stable enough now. There are so many things I wish I didn't say--just because I hate ruining what I've already got. March break starts now. I'm not sure what to do with myself. Throw myself under a train, perhaps? :D I've been depressed for the last little while. It's become quite clear that I need to take advantage of the strength I already have, and toughen up. I just reaaalllly need this week and a half to think, though. ♥ I won't regret the things I've said and done in a week or two, I hope, but right now they're burning my very soul. I am so dumb. :] ahaha. I'm a wreck. It's funny. ^_^;