I can honestly say I have no idea what I want. I love to bottle up what I'm feeling. Cheaah. So today my Meet your Meat DVD came in the mail, and I was extremely happy. I was basically running on an hour and a half of sleep all day, so it was nice to have something waiting for me when I got home. I skipped out on my tanning, because I was too tired. I was insane today, it's a blur. I felt drunk. I HAD THE BEST COOKIE EVER TODAY. And after supper, I napped, and it was great. Basically all I've done the last two evenings was sit infront of the computer with my iPod, listening to the same songs over and over, because I'm in that obsessive state of mind. I wanna live for now. Not for the past, not for the future. For me, and a little for those who I know I couldn't live without. So easy to say;; but I don't know how to do it.