"When you don't want to feel... death can seem like a dream. But, seeing death - really seeing it... makes dreaming about it fucking ridiculous." Today's not so bad. Even sleeping in 'til 4 can't possibly prepare you for walking downstairs to my sister & the kids, but I can cope. As soon as she left I went to the store and rented a ton of kid movies. I tried to order a new pair of awesome high heels, but the Hot Topic site was being an asshole. I remember making fun of how lame that store was, now look.. hahh. I really don't appreciate your friendship, but I wouldn't mind seeing you. Apparently, as of last weekend, I am a loser. I always have been. Apparently I'm alone. Only for the time being, rest assured. Life has a way of working out. "Was I ever crazy? Maybe. Or maybe life is... Crazy isn't being broken or swallowing a dark secret. It's you or me amplified. If you ever told a lie and enjoyed it. If you ever wished you could be a child forever. They were not perfect, but they were my friends."