A few things in list order- because my thoughts aren't organized at the moment and I'm having trouble writing with a cogent order: - I had fun at Rob's today. I felt like myself, and enjoyed being there. I felt a little bit annoying (as Rob, Fe and Kelsey can probably say) but I had a good time nonetheless. - I'm confused. I know "confusion is an advanced form of understanding" but I feel as if I'm not understanding anything, only becoming more confused. - I feel like I've been here before. I just wonder if I'll find the way out this time, or keep stumbling around in a circle once again. I wonder even if I'm supposed to find the door out. - I feel somewhat stressed about missing all of next week for Outdoor Ed. I know I'm going to have fun, but I'm not looking forward to making up the work (I hear that there's going to be an AP unit test next week... oh the joy, included with this test package is a Physics and Spanish test as well). Oh well, I just hope this time was as amazing as it was last year, and I hope everyone misses me. - My mom wrote me a letter, describing her unrest concerning the amounts of fights we've had lately. She said that she loves me a lot and is very proud of me, but is afraid that once I'll turn 18 I'll never talk to her again. I think I need to talk to her about this and help change some of her views about what's going to happen in the future between us- because I know she's worried about it when she doesn't need to be: I love her very much and sometimes I think she forgets that. - I am in love with them, oh my God. I am also incredibly upset at the lack of albums they have released. Word on the street says that they're going to release one soon, so I'm going to keep my fingers crossed. - The result of feeling somewhat creative and listening to too much Postal Service: - I'm hoping I can get some more Commonplace material done soon. Especially my adventures into my subconcious that I've had no success with. I plan on posting whatever I write though... once I manage to write it. - I'm somewhat displeased with how my Commonplace book turned out... I mean, I put my heart and soul into it- but I just don't know, I wasn't all too pleased with it. - I've also been somewhat distressed about my finals grades last semester, especially the ones in AP. I felt like I let Mr. Geib down- I know how much work he puts into the class and by my failing most of the finals, I feel like was a poor way to repay him. I feel incredibly inadequate and that I don't belong in AP. - AP Exams are in two months and 20 some odd days. I don't feel prepared at all, whatsoever. - I'm probably going to hang out with Kelsey tomorrow, and I hope having a good time with her will undermine most of my worries at present. - I'm going to go to sleep now because this past week I had gone to bed at an average of around 2 in the morning. I'm also hoping I can write some dream thoughts down too... that would be stellar. - I've also realized how self-centered I am and how much I hate myself for it.