While my eyes close, apathy fills my mind- nature's nectar in which is meant to be enjoyed on occasion and not daily. My eyes feel heavy and my mind is weak from this substance; I need to find the will to do, to breathe, to complete and to act. As a result, I'm feeling less than mediocre in a sea of gray- becoming blander than bland could ever wish to form. My feet slowly assimilate into the floor and become one, bringing more ground with me on every step that I take. My walk becomes more of a wade until I slowly stop movement. My message in which I speak of is neither trying to be depressing or saddening, but informative. Sometimes the truth is sharp, but life would seem a lot less painful if we shade our eyes from the sunful truth whenever it glares into our eyes; however, is there a point to that? I'm just hoping that my apathy will leave my body as quickly as it came. I've realized though that the only thing in which can rid apathy is ourselves and nothing but. I can't let it consume me- I've walked too far for too long to stop now. Even if I don't reach my ultimate goal or destiny, I can't let the work building up to it go to waste. I think failing isn't as bad as letting all of the work previous to it go unnoticed and similarly tossed aside like some piece of trash upon the human pantheon of achievement our bodies are encased in. I'm finding it harder to find the will to answer instead of getting the correct answer. Now, my mind is focused upon the strength required to act instead of the action itself- which are both important equally. It's amazing what apathy can create in its' wake. Subsequently, I feel drained. I feel that all thoughts I could have expounded upon at one point are now nothing but a dream- its' ethereality being no help as my hands try to grasp its' ghostly form. Even if I do manage to capture it, I lose all will to write and think about it. Honestly, even though I am not done with my homework right now, I think I should go to bed. If I go to bed past midnight once again, I think my situation will grow worse. It's not going to be dentrimental to my grade, so I'm going to. I don't know/ remember what the point to this post was. I think it was an attempt of trying to break my apathetic mindset and become strong-willed once again, but I rambled and I am very tired right now.