Okay, I lied. What I thought I knew and felt has become a maybe. I don't know. I don't know why I keep saying one thing, believing it for a little bit and then running back to the other side. I really don't know, but it isn't fair. I need to come up with an answer, and I need to come up with it quick- I feel that the longer I wait, the worse it's going to get. I hate feeling like this. I really, really do.