Charlie's mom saw my brother today. My brother can't understand why I'm mad at him. My Grandmother is out of the hospital, she's in denile, I guess it just isn't a river in egypt. Meg responded badly to my feelings. I think she thinks that I'm mad at her for being in love when she couldn't be farther from what I really feeling. I always hold back what I'm feeling, and the one time I don't bam, I'm accused of something like that. MY friend who I want nothing more for than her to be happy, thinks that of me....Totally misinterpreting my motivation. But thats fine. Be in love. Be happy. Just remember that I took time out of my life to be a good friend to you. Remember that I would do anything for you. Remember that when it comes to friendship, it is more important than anything in my life. Remember that. I wont feel, like a stranger around you anymore. I wont hide how I feel. I'm tired of holding back, to avoid the pain that I could cause others. And when I stepped back to let you do your thing I figured that you would still take time out for me. That was fine. Now there is not much of a friendship. I'd rather be lonely, I'd rather be confused, I'd rather be alone, than be misintpretted. I guess now I have my self, I guess now my husbands my best friend. This man no matter what was going on would love me and worry what I was doing and worry where I was. Ask me every day how I was feeling. and work hard to make me feel better. Work hard to wipe away my tears. Work hard to sorry me how much I mean to him. I hate myself for wrting all this, I know it will be taken bad. But like I said................. ...............HIDDEN CHILD..................