Damn i am already tired of school and it has only been a week, and I'm starting to think that this long ass college thing just isn't for me. I am a certified notetaker. I take notes for deaf people. It pays 6 bucks and hour. But I would do it for free. I just like helping those in need, for surely they would do it for me. Something is wrong with me. I feel sick constantly. My stomach feels stressed when I'm not. I lost 8 pounds not dieting. I don't know maybe I am stressed. I have been thinking alot about my past and all the bullshit I did. And now I wonder maybe it is just who I am. I spend so much time trying to peel away the rebel in me to try and grow up and be propper and all it does is mess me up. God Damnit! I feel so fake. I don't know what to do. Did you ever feel like, "why should i be in this world? To wake up tomorrow to all of this? This nothingness?, does it get an