Where is the person that isn't going to walk away? The one that isn't going to immediately sense trouble and just walk away. Why do people constantly walk away? I don't need that. It's not what I need. It doesn't make me feel safe and secure, it doesn't make me feel happy, it doesn't make me feel loved at all. I don't feel good when they walk away. Why do they think that it makes it better? You know what it does? Do you know what it actually does? It makes me trust them less. Makes me put them into a different catergory then they were before. If you are willing to walk away when it's like that, not even the worst it's ever been, how can I trust you won't walk away when I need someone the most? I'm growing to accustomed to it. I'm becoming too used to the lack of trust again. Just when I was starting to become better at it, letting myself open up and then this bullshit happens. Who does he think he is just, going away. Like I'm not going to remember that? Like he doesn't know how I am? How can someone know me so well, and yet do something like that. I'll remember it. I'll remember this tomorrow and the next day and I won't be able to push it away from me. It will linger and I won't be able to step away from the words and the reminders.