I can´t help it..I hate that everytime I think about him my eyes fill up with tears.. How can a person make you feel both emotions at the same time?? I hate him so much right now..I could scream the worst things at his face!But at the same time I know I love him more than anything in the world..and I would die to have him here right next to me for the rest of my life.. I think I´m going to cry..no..I really won´t. I´ll just keep the tears to myself and burst some other time when I feel this way but stronger..I´m so pathetic!