Sometimes I wonder what other people think. I mean what do they think about me? Like when Lydell walks down the hall he yells 'Cocca Babies' whenever he sees me. Does Jeremy think anything of it? I wish that he would. I really like him. I like him differently than Jordan. Its not like I think about anything gross but i just do. I don't know he's just such a great person who I can talk with about anything thats troubling me. I repect him and Jordan sooo much. I think if i would have to choose a peer who I would most likely want to be more like, I would have to choose either of them..no doubt. Alright..Jordan. Did I ever like him? I would like to say no. But unfortunally, I did. Too Much. I thought that he was perfect. But no one is perfect. And I understand why now. Jordan is such an awesome guy and I am so lucky to of met him and he is always going to be remembered. Am I wanting a relationship? No. I just want to feel a connection with a guy.A guy who feels the same way as I do about him. A good Guy too. I don't need a guy to be happy @ the age of 14. No one does. I can actually be happy with juss a bunch of girls and Tae. Am I Happy? Yes. Cuz I am alive today. And I have met such an awesome person who makes me feel awesome whenever I talk to him. Am I confused? YES. I couldn't be more confused. I have know idea how I should talk to my friends. I don't know if I should tell them anything...if I do tell them..Do I tell them everything? Do they want to know everything? If they ask me..'how are you feeling' or 'whatsup with the katie' I would tell them. But if they don't ask. Then I won't tell. well..thats all for now loveya kate