*You know what the truth is? The truth is I miss you with all my heart. I can't stand the sound of your name because it hurts too much. *And the fact that I may never see you again makes it even worse. I did and still do completely and utterly love you. You make me feel like no one else can. *You always know how to make me smile and not one of those fake smiles I usually always have on, but one of those smiles that when you're around, I can never seem to get rid of. The worst thing is that when you push me away or I feel that way, you're hurting me, or when you tell me about other girls..it hurts and every time I see you, I just want to jump in your arms, in hopes that things will be okay. *But now that you're gone, and maybe not coming back, I need you to know, just how much I love you and just how much, I need you and pray that you do that right back. I hope you hear this because with all my heart, I love you. I miss you. I need you. But I'm afraid to tell you.