Well, Its winter break '04 and this is going to be the best '04 break this year..lol my voice sounds REALLY funny. Last nite james and rach came over. we watched so of the OC and we always listened to amanda make fun of me when i was little. we then had an interesting dinner with my dad and family 'suck my...left ovary' haha and then we went up to my room and talked a little bit and then i showed rachael E and A .. (but shh her fingers are broken) then we cuddled..haha great times. today i worked on some xmas gifts and watched a movie with colie. it was fun.. I went to the movies with James...we saw spanglish and spilt our popcorn and saw robbie walkin around by himself. it had a horrible ending. i wrote some new poems.. I smile when you're around But only I know that My life's come crashing down You've never looked into my head and wondered if I cry I bet you think I'm happy here But really the only thing that I want to do is… all I want to do is die