Where your walking naked down the street? And everyone just stares? Wonder if Anyone Cares? Sometimes i think im the only one whos day turns down unlike it had begun? I can't fake it anymore. How do i deal? I write, and i've been writing a lot lately. I like my hair color, but i think taht i would like it redder, so i think sometime next week i mite dye it again. I went to a christmas party with chrissy tonight, we sat around the food and talked about everything. Damn i miss that girl so much, i kinda got wound up with everyone else and kinda forgot about my best friend. We both know that we have other best friends, but we both would like to hang out more. We cuddled on the way home. it was grand. All i really want to do is cry, cuz it feels like no one has been there for me latley, cept they have. My dad and i just scared amanda, we put a dancing tree in her room, that talks and turns on when the lite comes on, and she just walked in and turned the lite on and was like 'oly shit.' it was great, almost pissed my pants. Why do you always do this to me? Its not supposesd to hurt this way. i.need.you. It is hard to be happy for people. When you aren't happy yourself. I've been that way for a long time. maybe im just self fish. i dont know but i dont like it. oh supposedly im two i need to talk to someone, seriously. no i dont need to talk to someone.. i need to cry to someone.