its nice. 9:17 and no one is up yet. i love it. i had the worst night of my life last night. it all started around eleven. then. i just went to sleep and hoped that i'd never get up. but i did and now it is 9:18 and i'm supposed to be working on my paper. *I hold on for too long. I'm always forgiving and telling myself lies in order for everything to be okay. but i realize that i can't. i can't hold on to something that is not there. *I have the best friends in the world. they are always silly and goofy and willing to love me even though i am so stupid sometimes. but i hope that i don't take them for granted ever, and i hope that they don't take me for granted..because i know that we only have three more years together, and we should make the best of it. also i dont know how long ill stick around. not that im emo or anything. but sometimes people leave, and people change. *i'm back if anyone cares...i'm just questioning pretty much everything these days. xoxo.