so i am coming ot the conlusion that its not me that really messes things up here...its christine. i got in trouble last night after the meet, and well its for something christine was doing and didn't finish. so yeah... i really want to live my life the way i want to, and well i'm tired of people telling me that i should feel one way. and well yes even if they're right, i want to do it myself! yeah i know that i am a spoiled brat, and that i have been sheltered a good portion of my life, and well i want it to stop, and i want to do things so i can learn! i'm tired of people telling me i am going to hate baker, and that its going to be hard for me to find a different college, and well i dont know that for sure! and well if i do THEN LET ME WORK IT OUT! i want to live my life, not have people live it for me! i want to make the mistakes, i want to be stupid, i want to have to worry, i want to go through hell! i just want my life, and it seems like its so hard for me to have it!