So i dont know why, but there is something missing in my life, and i cant put my finger on it. it's really wierd, and thats why i have been is such a sad/mad looking mood. i just cant figure things out and it is really starting to fustrate me. at first i blamed it on the absense of my mother, but i dont feel it is anymore, and i feel foolish for the thought. but then i really feel that its the absense of the animal companion i have always had. i first had missy, who was a second mother and my best friend, and well after she died my mom really tried to replace her with ice, and it worked, i was really happy to have my baby boy, but my luck with cats is just not very good, and well i really wish i could have a cat. i miss having them to sleep and cry with, but my dad and micki dont want a cat, and i cant have one when i go to college, so i think that my tree will have to do for now. even though it cant really crawl in bed with me...lol. well thats whats been going through my head lately, so if i've been moody around you, then i am sorry, its not you, its me! :P love you all!