I don't want this. I hate this. I want this to end. Everything. I can't take it anymore. -------------- I always turn out to be the wrong one, don't I? I'm always the one hurting someone. I'm always the one apologizing. It's always me. Always. ME. Why? Is there like no way you could hurt me? You're always the good one right? Can I not let out my feelings? When you said you would always be there for me, you said I could come to you for anything. Guess what? I did. But apparently I can't be mad and yell and scream when I feel like it. EVEN WHEN IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU. It makes me feel like I shouldn't come to you. It makes me feel like you're not going to be there for me after all. -------------- I want to lose all feelings to like a guy. Like, I don't want to like anyone anymore. It always ends badly. I never get who I want. I always get hurt. I'm always confused. No guy seems like he ever wants to date me. I'm only there for temporary pleasure. Well, I'm not, sorry. I'm not going to fucking take this anymore. --------------- I am so ready to switch schools. I can not stay at the school I'm going to right now. I can't. Every day, EVERY FUCKING DAY, something bad happens. If not to me, to someone else. I'm tired of seeing him, I'm tired of still fucking wanting him, I'm tired of seeing everyone and everything there. I can not stay there anymore. Why did I fucking go there in the first place? --------------- Parents. Why. Seriously why? If you don't want me, why the fuck did you have me? Why can't I live? I'm not stupid. I know my limits. I know when to stop. I know what I'm going to do when I grow up. I know who I should be around and who I shouldn't. I know what I'm doing. I'm 15 turning 16 tomorrow. I'm not a child. But I know I'm not an adult. I don't ask for much. I don't want much. I just want to be able to help out. You won't let me do that either. WHY? --------------- Fuck everything.