I'm updating earlier than I should be! Be happy. Feel special. Go have sex. I'm kidding. 2/4/08 We, my brother's and I, went to Barnes and Noble, just to go. There wasn't a partcular reason for it. Even my dad was wondering why I wanted to go to Barnes and Noble. The place is like my second home. Not really, but I love it there. It smells of amazing Starbucks coffee and lattes and frappuccinos. Yum. I even came home smelling of coffee and lattes and frappuccinos. WOOT. Once my dad dropped us off there we stayed and looked for something nice to look at and dig our heads into. When we didn't find anything at that moment, we went across the street to Panera Bread, which is also amazing, and got a portabello and mozzarella[sp?] panini and a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. Yay. I was still hungry, but I didn't push it; we were running low on our $20 budget. Figuring we had $6 left, we went back to Barnes and Noble and got a brownie which I, myself had to eat, and a vanilla latte. Yum. Though, eating the brownie made the latte taste.."non-sweet". I walked around and found Blue Bloods. Oh how I wanted that book so badly. I took it and sat down with my latte and started reading it. It was so interesting that by the time my parents came I was at page 57. Ohhh, yeah. I figured that if I told them I really had to finish the book because I was already at page 57, they would have to buy it for me. All they said was, "We don't have enough money and you should not read about such obsurd things!" What the fuckkkkkkk. I've been reading the Twilight series for a year now. Though, maybe they didn't know I've been liking mythical vampire stuff..[sigh]. Fuck. I did not get anything from Barnes and Noble except for the latte and brownie. That sucked. Booo parents! And now my mom says I can't wear the shirt with a bleach stain on the side that I can cover with a jacket. Psh. Tomorrow's Monday. I'll be going to take my permit test on Friday! Ohhh yess. My mom says I should wait a bit longer. Fuck no. I'm not waiting anymore. I'm going to be fucking free! I hope. [sigh] I got to wait until Friday though. It's going to be a long week. I can feel it in my bonessss. Hah. I'm up at 5:45am writing this. I don't know why, but I figured I had time. You know what sucks? Getting an acceptance letter to a school you DON'T want to go to. And that's what happened. Grr. Last night I was in my room and I was doing my homework, when my dad calls me downstairs. Of course I was annoyed. With him, I'm always annoyed. So when I went downstairs, My dad pulls out and acceptance letter from Carolina. BOO Carolina. I hate it there. It makes Southside feel like sanctuary. I was really, really mad, and I just took the letter and went upstairs, not saying a word to my parents. They apparently thought I was going to burn it so they called me back downstairs to give them the letter. I was angry, and stressed. I tried talking to Mac, but he nevere replied after "hi.". I then started venting to Blair, which helped, cause I got the classes Southside offered for me next year and showed it to my dad. He looked at the classes, and said, "These are good, but Carolina is going to take you straight to medical school." I said that the IB program at Southside would look better on any college application than going to Carolina. He finally said, "Whatever, do what you want, it's your life.." Well duh, it's my life, but I want them to be happy I'm going to Southside. I don't want them to be disappointed in me. The two reasons I'm at Southside for the IB program is because of the IB diploma I would get, which is a big ups for me. The second reason I would want to stay would be because I love Southside. It's not the best, but I love it. I think it is much better than what Carolina would be. Ugh. I'm going to go get ready for school. Toodles<3