so yea my lip is healing good. and i have been thinking of my ex like no tomorrow and i think im losing my mind. nothing is going right anymore. i just walk around in a tranz and try to make people beleave im ok and im slright..... but im not. u dont know how bad i just want to pick uop the blade or call my friends and go get drunk or high. but i dont want to ruin my scholling. i cant fuck that up..my phone got shut off. i have no way to keep in contact with my guys in cali because on my house phone i cant call long distance so yeah im fucked because there the only ones who could help me. and my cousin is off with her boyfriend and my other people are working or pissed at me.........o well. i cant talk to most people becaue i tend to fake empathy. i mean they always interupt me or talk about themselves. and i just fake empathy.... but i really want to say SHUT THE FUCK UP! your not the only ones with problems. or at least u know why ur sad cause i dont. theres just something that i cant get over and i dont know wut it is.... chris just called and told me this "if vince vaugh and johnny depp ever do a movie together, itll be the end of the world as i know it" for neone who knows me this is funny as hell. im overly obsessed with the two of them and thats all i talk about. i think i love chris ica