This is my first entry into this diary, this may be theraputic I guess! Today was another cookie cutter ass day! Same shit over and over again. The anxiety's been biting at me again and it won't let me sleep so the best way I think I could start this thing is with one of my poems, that way anyone who reads this might know a little more about what type of person I am. This poem is titled OPTIMISM vs. SARCASM and is one of my favorites! Please, let me know what you think! Maybe this end is another beginning Just maybe this isn't so bad Maybe if I took a closer look I'd realize the good times I've had Maybe my glass isn't half empty Maybe it's half full instead Maybe I should look foward and stop looking back Maybe I WOULDN'T be better off dead Maybe both of my parents deceased Is just a blessing in disguise Maybe all these failed relationships Make me stronger and more the wise Maybe anxiety; my torment, is a gift To help me learn self dicipline Maybe every painful lesson I learn Is the price I pay for my sin Maybe these ugly days I struggle through Aren't really that bad at all Maybe I DO make it harder on myself Maybe you're right after all Maybe trying harder will help me to heal Maybe my torment WILL pass Maybe optimism WILL be my saviour Or maybe I'm just being a smart-ass! -Mitchell Ryan