My financial aid fianlly kicked in, so we're taking a 3 day trip back to the coast. Just Eddie and I this time, I'm excited, I miss the beach so much! I get to see Scott and Rick, Teddi, Nicole and of course Cyndi. It will be good to get into some misgief again! Lots of good clubs and endless parties to look foward to, but mostly the beach. My home away from home...I can't wait! I think we might even camp if the weather permits. I'm scared that I'm not going to come back home though...it's going to be tough. I have always lived for my freedom and independence, it is one of the greatest privelages of being me! I almost talked myself out of going because I knew it would be hard to leave; I was pushing for Sacramento at first...I miss all of my friends their too, but the coast brings me more happiness, Sac brings mostly regret! Lots of mistakes there! Oh well, I have plenty of time to prepare, so I guess I shouldn't sweat it so much. There are just so many things I miss... Here are some lyrics...don't ask me the relevance because it would take too long to explain. This is just my mind right now, enjoy the confusion! Bloc Party: "Blue Light" You'll find it hiding in shadows You'll find it hiding in cupboards It will walk you home safe every night It will help you remember If that's the way it is Then that's the way it is I still feel you and the taste of cigarettes What could I ever run to Just tell me it's tearing you apart Just tell me you cannot sleep If that's the way it is Then that's the way it is And you didn't even notice When the sky turned blue And you couldn't tell the difference Between me and you And I nearly didn't notice The gentlest feeling You are the bluest light... You are the bluest light... You are the bluest light... You are the bluest light... You are the bluest light... You are the bluest light...