When our lives take on changes we adapt to new environments. A time will come when you become who you will be forever, not that I think I am there, but I know that I have made a lot of mistakes and gone through many changes already, so I do know that I have definately slowed down. No drastic changes will be made to my life that will alter the person that I am today. Saying this it is funny to look back on all of our sidewalks...WOW...what adventures I have had! I've learned from my mistakes I can honestly say that i think I am a better person now, but unfortunately when you leave a mess (or a lot of messes!) in your past you will deal with them in time, and sometimes it can create new pain and new regret, but this is what you get for making the mess in the first place! Some ex-flings of mine have decided to some how come together in an ironic coincidence to force me into dealing with the pain that I caused them...I'm not joking either or trying to be vain. In the past two or three days I have recieved the most random out of left field phone calls and e-mails. A lot of "you are the only one I have ever loved and i miss you" and some more of "I can't stop loving you please you are the only one for me." Now you see, this is all happening whilst in the middle of being in sweet sweet out of control love with Teddi. Time is paying me my dues! I am genuinely a good person though, and I was hurt really bad in my past and in turn I hurt a lot of other people, I know this was wrong, and I have done a lot to better myself to make sure that I know who I trely am and that doing what I feel is right is soooo important. So I am handling these calls very well, I am honest and I explain who I was at the time, I admit to my wrong doing and I apologize for all that it might be worth. I know that this sin't always going to be enough for them, but this is the best I can do, and I feel that it is the right thing. Teddi has been very patient with me too, she is very supportive and truely understands that I love her and that I have the purest intentions with her. Happiness comes with a price, but I am handling it the best that I can. Time will only tell what sidewalks lay ahead, but I am more certain now that they will never be as rugged as they used to be! A special thanks to those who know me the best, and for the patience of all my friends. I do care very much about all of you, thank you for being here for me when I didn't always deserve it. I love you all!