I know that I promised that I would stop writing about "her" but the problem with this shit is that the pain is so incredibly fucking real. This shit hurts and it won't stop because the whole thing just keeps replaying over and over and over and over. I had an amazing weekend, I spent some time with Teddy and she definately helped ease some of that pain, but at the same time it made it all the more real to me, does that make any sense? This blurry reality was still capable of being manipulated and even in its vividness now it still seems so surreal. What in the hell did I do to deserve this? I've been listening for a very convinient song to feed the pain..here are some more lyrics bitches! Over and Over I can't wait to see you Wanna see if you still ain't got that look in your eyes That one you had for me Before we said our goodbye's And it's a shame that we Got to spend our time being mad about the same things Over and over again About the same things over and over again Ohhh...but I think she's leavin' Oh man...she's leavin' I don't know what else to do I can't go on not loving you Cause it's all in my head I think about it over and over again And I can't keep picturing you with him And it hurts SO BAD yeah Cause it's all in my head I think about it over and over again I replay it over and over again And I can't take it, I can't shake it no I remember the day you left I remember the last breath you took right in front of me When you said that you would leave I was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anything But I see clearly now And this choice I made keeps playin in my head Over and over again You play in my head Over and over again Ohhh...I think she's leavin' Oh man...she's leavin I don't know what else to do I can't go on not loving you Cause it's all in my head I think about it over and over again And I can't keep picturin' you with him And it hurts SO BAD yeah Cause it's all in my head I think about it over and over again I replay it over and over again And I can't take it, I can't shake it no Now that I realize...that I'm goin' down from all this pain you put me through Everytime I close my eyes I...I get down ohhh I can't go on not loving you Cause it's all in my head I think about it over and over again And I can't keep picturin' you with him And it hurts SO BAD yeah Cause it's all in my head I think about it over and over again I replay it over and over again And I can't take it, I can't shake it no Over and over again Over and over again Cause it's all in my head. Kimberleigh...I could really use some bad ass advice right now, I know that I am older and have different experiences, but I know that you know what it means to love, and the pain that can be caused. How do I heal? Where in the hell can I find some fuckin comfort right now?