Well, Jesus I know that the world probably doesn't like it, but I think I will love again! Through the pain and torment that any one person has to deal with in their lifetime weather they be 22 or 40 years old doesn't matter, we realize at some point along the way that the worst most painful things in the world will happen to us in order to create the most wonderful, most beautiful breath-stealing experiences. I have spent a lot of time on here and in my life in general; complaining about my pain and feeling sorry for myself. I have been hurt and I have hurt others, but how lucky am I to get yet another go around. This one is magical though I promise! When you are young and impressionable (freshman year of highschool) you usually get a taste of love when it is so fucking innocent and pure, when it really matters and before the world and people can destroy the image of it. You get to feel things that you never imagined feeling and it is the only feeling in the world that I think is truely impossible to describe with words. Now, after three serious relationships and a shit-load of retarded one-night stands, I can honestly say that I have found that feeling again. I will never take this for granted and if time should rip this away from me I will know and appreciate how lucky I was to feel the way I do now. Teddi has ripped the chains off of my stone-cold heart and given me a reason to love again, to love differently, to love actually. I adore her and every tiny detail about her life. I love the way things matter and don't matter to her, I love the way that she accepts me even with such a rugged past, I love the way she listens and cares about my constantly changing appetite for depression, I love the way she can bring me out of it without even saying a word to me, I love the way I can see how much I mean to her when I look into her eyes, I love her patience, and her will to not let me go even we I told her to, I love the way she is so pure and innocent even after having a rugged path herself. WOW! So this is what it feels like?