Can a person find serenity within themselves? Living on and enjoying the person I need to be is great, but without absolution can I ever find serenity? Will I be willing to love somebody so much ever again? To commit in this fashion is more than a sacrafice, it is a lifestyle that is only deserving of a person who can take your breath from you without touching you or speaking a single word. If lost can this be found again in someone new? I loved and trusted and became a romantic in a fashion that I never thought I could achieve. I was loved back for being this person. I adored her in every aspect of her life, when she talked to me I was always intersted and attentive, not because this is what we should do, but because it came to me. I adored her smile and told her how beautiful and imporatnt she was millions of times a day, and she adored this act of obsession, because it was comfortable and needed. I never smothered her and knew when to give her time to be an individual away from what relationships entangle, and she gave me the same pardon in return. What now is such a good reason to let go. Why? Niether one of us want to, 300 miles apart now, but our hearts are still trapped somewhere in between. Why? Something has got to give, if not, can I find this again? Who will need me now when the day is done? And who can I run to when I need MY comfort? I will live for now alone and for myself, even though I know I am making good decisions, and I am on a good track the pain remains, and at times is more than unbearable...