well hello there internet diarie of mine, i spent the majority of my day in ISS. hah it was a pain, as usual. I got a lot of work done though, and after the work, i did a lot of reading. I was reading The Catcher in the Rye. Oh how i love it so. After ISS i went to the Auditions for the play. My feelings on that are mixed; the play seems very intresting and funnie, however, i have a bad feeling about it...i dont know what it was but some how i did not feel right while i was there. I think it is so pathetic how different i am now than i was, say, the begining of the summer. Sometimes i remember how i felt at times, and its shocking. i hate it when i think about things, which is all the time, Especially the past month or so. I don't know, i am just so sad and i guess i know why. I am only happy at a select few times. Maybe i should start telling people how i feel. No. i better not, i dont know many who would even care. i have been holding EVERYTHING inside of me for quite a while, i have not been doing anything to releive myself of it. This cant be good. On a happier note: Blake and i are actually doing GREAT latley, he is so great, we need to have more sex. :) Alrighty then kids, i will be going, oh i know you are in great sadness, hah yeah right. Party on garth. ♥ Jess.