william called. for the third time. the first time he said that we're better off as friends. mmkay william, whatever you say. he wanted me to go to some wrestling tournament at his school. b/c i'm stupid enough to drive out there "just to talk". i don't wanna talk. he had 4 months to talk. why now? he called again Christmas eve. "just wanted to wish you a merry christmas. i got a new car. who are you dating? ... oh so you're doing the same thing you did to zach" i didnt do shit to zach. zach's the one that didn't trust me. zach is the one that gave me the choice. i just made it. then today. 3 o'clock in the morning. "what are you doing?" "nothing william. are you okay?" "no. the girl i was dating just broke up with me over some bullshit. i'm done with girls. after nikki kenzie you and elizabeth. i can't take it anymore. i'm not dating anymore girls." wth. if i could reach him i would've slapped him for saying that. first: don't treat me like shit, wait for me to tell you i'm done, wait a week and tell me you wanna be friends, then call me three weeks later and tell me that you're new g/f just dumped you. i don't fucking care. not my problem. second: i haven't done anything. all i did was care about him. all i did was give him way too many chances. no one deserves that many chances. especially him. ha. and then came "hey." "what william" "i'm sorry for what i did to you." too late for the apologies sweetie. should've apologized 2 months ago and then fixed it. definitely too late now. because i have found an amazing guy that i know is always gonna treat me right. he's not gonna say something and not be able to back it up. and he sure as hell isn't gonna make promises he can't keep. atleast not without a legit excuse. god i could just punch william in the face right now. i have a good mind to call him back and yell at him. but i'm too tired. and i don't wanna waste my energy. and of course my friends get mad at me when he i answer his calls. but i can't help it. i don't think about it. just a habit. i spent so much time worrying about him and waiting to hear his voice to know he didn't go out and do something stupid. and now it's just hard to get out of that. and apparently i'm a just a nice person or something. damnit. i wish i could be like those heartless bitches that don't care. but i guess i've been taught better than that. or maybe i just know how it feels.. but william needs to learn a fucking lesson. and i think i may be the one to teach it to the sorry ass motherfucker.