well.. senior year. i honestly can't believe it's here already. i'm soo excited. but at the same time i'm terrified. i'm not sure exactly what to think or how to feel. i just know that high school is almost over. and hello college. goodbye easy life. ha. yes i'll be away from this hell they all expect me to call home. hopefully. but i'll also soon be on my own. i guess it had to happen eventually.. i really hate the way my schedule is this year though. i have all of my easy classes first semester. then second sememster i have the hard ones. this semester the only class i need is english. next semester i have AP studio art, PSDM, govrnmnt/econ, and astronomy. the only one i don't need to graduate is the art class. someone please shoot me. fortunately i have this amazing boyfriend who says he's going to help me. and i know he'll be there for me. i love him soo much. i just hope that he knows.. i talked to zach last week. for about an hour. and if you think about it it's really not that long considering we havent spoken in over a year. well.. other than that one time we messaged on myspace. but we didn't really talk, ya know? we kinda caught up. got some things straightened out. he says that he didn't cheat on me with lauryn. but that doesnt mean there wasn't anyone else.. i doubt there was. it was pretty surprising when ashley told me that.. very out of character for zach. i should've just asked him then.. but that was the problem with our relationship. we always talked when we were just friends. but when we started dating we talked about everything except for us. which was a big problem. but in a way i'm glad everything happened the way it did. well.. i could have done without the whole william thing.. definitely could have done without that. lol. but everything turned out fine. except for the occasional calls and texts from william.. hmm.. there's a pattern there. haha. but anyway..