its been a long time since i wrote in here! i feel terrible!!! i don't know where i belong anymore! i don't know why i'm alive! i'm always scared! i'm always sad! i'm a lost soul trying to commit suicide every moment! and the most of all i'm killing my friend jennifer feelings! i'm feel terrible after the conversation or me and her had! i feel like i souldn't be her friend if i make her life a mizsable thing! :'(:'(:(:(I'M SORRY JEN:(:(:'(:'( if you want me to commit suicide i will then:(:( everyday my parents talk abut my brother! everyday it brings me down! everyday i cry everday i cry when i hear his name and my family talkign about him becuz i miss him so much! and he had to die:(:( its just i wish that was me!