right now i don't even think i sud be living with all teh lies i brought people and the hate i brouth between people(friends) just i'm totally depressed everyday just think of a mess i am i don't know what i'll do next i just hope it won't be another mistake. i'm trully praying agn hopeing and copeing to god to help me threw these ugly days and guide me to a safer place where i can't harm anybody or myself. just i feel soooo damn confused inside of me nto nowing what path i sud take for life right now. i still lay in bed and just have thoughts and memories of my ex hugging me :( which will never ever happen agian:( now that i think of my ex more the more tears fall down from my face crying so hard tryin to not make a sceen. becuz really i don't think i can trust anybody and i don't know if anybody can trust me right now becuz mistakes i made. but really i've been hearing sum thing about *** telling me that *** has ***** on. just thinking about that inside of me hates me every more. **my pray for the world is to guide me to a better place** becuz truly i can't take it i still wannt live**but just unbecome the mess i am** if anybody out there cud help me please please help.