well i guess things aren't the best with me...hideing isn't working from my nightmares..not telling Jessie that i don't want her to hang-out with devon is just becuz of the4 words he spoke to me calling me down and shit just stressfull of what he said...and alot lately i've been wondering if he is right and maybe i sud follow him give up her for devan...its a killer to me that she still wants to be his friend becoz of what she told me on sundday of the unexpected he kissed her....i'm trying my hardest to try accpet him into jessie's life becuz truly i have so much trust in jessie but knowing that she is out with people i dislike much *TAKEN ADVANTAGE* is uselly the bigest problem ever becuz one time she told me it i cudn't believe it becuz i was changeing sumbody else's life with mine becuz just when i was bringing myself down she thought the same and did worse or same things. and really what she told me afer i'd letting her be his friend she told me if he trys anything else she won't be his friend anymore and will try and not make it happen---from that i think i will/wish i cud drop her is ANYTHING else happens...truly why is she waiting for sumthing else to happen to hurts us more(U):( well thats all for tonight and goodbye {+dame+}