well its like 4:34am in the morinning and i still haven't gotten any sleep. its killing me to see my ex's msn name with another guys name in it:(:(:(at that point it just lowers me down and then i start to cry:( today wasn't the best day for me becuz i quit my job becuz i was fed up with it. i ask myself these questions will i ever get her back? will i die before the age 16 like my brother did?(i fear that every day of my life) will i ever accpet a mother or a father in life, becuz right now i can't accpet the people i live with right now becuz how am i supose to know that they won't do that same thing just like my old parents did to me:( will i ever be happy in life? these are all unanswered questions that i seem to not find the answers. so damn tired that i can't sleep!!